By Susan G Parcheta
(pub Sept. 2, 2012)
The turn I have just taken, the turn that I was making, I might be just beginning, I might be near the end.” ~ (From the album “The Memory of Trees” by Enya, lyrics by Roma Ryan)
Had I not made the turn, I might not have noticed. I’d felt uneasy all day, that other-shoe-is-going-to drop feeling. Only, in this case it was a tree.
In my uneasiness, I decided going for a walk might help. Walking among the trees always brings to me a sense of balance. It’s a simple thing to do, when things seem awry.
I wasn’t looking intently. I just began my usual walkaround, mostly noticing the ground before me. When I reached the fork in the trail, where I usually go left, I felt the nudge to make a right turn. Then, looking ahead, I wondered what had happened that I couldn’t see through to the end. Masses of leaves covered the trail.
In astonishment, I realized it was the top of a fallen
tree. Somehow, my heart knew it was my tree house tree. What else could
it possibly be, that I’d have felt that uneasiness, and made a right
turn. I could have easily walked to the left, on around the trail, back
through the yard, and I honestly don’t think I’d have noticed. It had
fallen perfectly within the stand of trees and not into the main yard.I still can’t believe it happened. Yet, it also astonishes me that, somehow, there’s within me a knowing that all is well. It astonishes me that I’m so…OK with this event.
Perhaps the tree falling is symbolic of a transformation going on in my life. Why, when I almost physically hurt when my husband cuts down a tree, am I so OK with it?



